that's fair enough. i haven't maintained the discipline needed. i was on track like over 2 years ago, but i got stoned. lmao. also, i blame the middle east. now i'm being a good boy, but i'm also skinny as fuck and haven't worked out since 3/2004 (excluding the last 2-3 weeks back in the gym). thus, i'm hoping to walk the line and shed the remainder of this small "gut" (guessing i'm at 13-14%?) and lean out in general, but while also adding some muscle mass back. even eating a clean 1700-2000 calories a day is a chore. and that may just barely be enough to go above maintenance and gain some mass (i'm about 155) back, depending on my overall activity level. hopefully things like cardio and yohimburn make some difference.
and this notion of the superiority of strength and doing something strictly for one's self, while fine (and something that i appreciate because i want strength), is ultimately no better than lifting to look good for both yourself and others. if you try to justify it on an objective basis, you will fail. so do your thang and do it well, whatever it is.