Perhaps you might find comfort in the knowledge that because I read about your tragedy I was woken up to how poorly I have been behaving toward my own daughter. Without getting too specific, some things have been going on between my oldest daughter and myself and I have been experiencing some feelings that I knew were wrong but that I didn't know how to eliminate. I put a wall up between us for something so ridiculous that I am ashamed to even think about it. I had been speaking to my husband about it but I didn't know how to make these feelings that I had go away. It was so bad that I couldn't stand to look at her, let alone show her any affection or patience.

How miserable an excuse for a human being could I be ....to deprive my daughter of my affection because she is merely growing up? I've never felt this way before. She has been headstrong and rebellious since she went off to kindergarten, but I felt that she just took everything that I gave her (not tangible things, but my very soul) and just tossed it aside without any thought or feeling.

But because of your unselfishness by sharing your pain with me, I am reminded that regardless of how difficult and painful it will be for me to watch my children grow up and away from me, I will see them grow. That, in and of itself is a joy and a privilige. It is my destiny to love them unconditionally, regardless of how much they hurt me. They are only children trying desperately to find their way in the world.......and I will be their guiding them, both physically, spiritually and emotionally.

Again, I thank you both for allowing us to comfort and support you. You have saved me from committing a tragic and fool-hardy error that might have caused a permanent rift between myself and my most precious child.

Thank you and I hope that you both find comfort in each others arms.

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Originally posted by Rotten:
Later that day a specialist tells us that one of the twins has heart problems and the other twion was giving up all of its fluid to save its sister.

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Thats amazing that one sibling would do that for the other.

Everyone on Elite is here for you.

I don't know what else to say.......

If I learned anything from this, it would be to appreciate everyday and everyone around you. There have been times that I was selfish and wanted things my way and didn't care who I hurt. Most things are so petty and we make a huge fuss over them. I've learned to just let stupid shit go, and worry about whats really important. All things heal with time, and I know that we will too. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't give my girlfriend an extra kiss or an extra hug, or try to take care of the "little things" that are so important to her, because I never what can happen.

We will make it thru this, and we will have more children. Reagan and Sydney will always hold a special place in my heart, and I miss them. I will live everyday to the fullest. I feel like I owe it to them.

Thanks again for your kind thoughts. I will show them to Maria when I get home.

I feel for you brother.

Dan