So the best bet is to start tanning and use anti-e's like arimidex then, I take it.
Probably start on a low-dose cycle of test at 250mg a week, skip the d-bol and deca, at least first cycle.
I train sometimes with some "natural powerlifters" at my gym and get advice on technique and may compete with them in the future, and they are all good guy's and I just don't want to be looked down on because I want to go on the juice. It's not a matter of needing it. I make plenty of strength and size gains so long as I eat alot, sleep alot and train hard, it comes no problem. It's more wanting to to see what it's like and to get my test levels up high because I miss that feeling when I was 16 of being HELLA horny, but even more than that, I miss the sick ass pumps I used to get back then from training which I don't get now, at least not to the same degree which I can only attribute to the high levels of test I had at the time from going through puberty.
Also, I see nothing morally wrong with using juice as it's my body and I want to be FAR above normal physically which I believe I am capable of without, just even more so and faster with juice. I make no moral distinction between a guy using juice and say a woman getting breast implants.
I am going to use, so in my scenario, is there anyway I can use without being TOO obvious about it besides not talking about it and casually denying it if it's brought up? I mean I know as soon as I go on I'm gonna blow up, even if it's a low dose like 250mg a week. I tried 1-ad for 3.5 weeks and gained 12lbs and retained roughly 10 of them and it wasn't fat or at least very little as I appeared leaner after, even though I was eating hella. I got killer, long lasting pumps in my forearms, delts and arms off that weak shit and put a legit 1" on my arms in that time frame that I kept after. I believe I'm a high responder or whatever and I just don't want to get excluded or looked down on for choosing to be all that I really can be haha. It seems unfair to think bad about someone that uses AAS, like that makes them a bad person or whatever.
Any advice, thoughts?