Our coven did all the sephiroth last year (one per month) now we're working the paths from Malkuth up. Our HP has us working them in groupings, according triangle groupings and gematria.
I have two chakra clearing exercises if you're interested, one is more powerful (and time consuming) than the other. Do you still have my private email? If so, send me an email to it (I'm blanking on yours), I'll send you attachments. If not, send me yours via private mail here.
In the past two months I've spent WAAAAAAYYYY too much money on books/rocks/meditative CDs and furniture ... I've been bad ... well, hubby's final child support payment will be the last monday of this month, I went a little overboard
I know what you mean about giving up and letting go. Sometimes the biggest lesson we need to learn on this plane is trusting the process. I'm having residual health problems from the meningitis I had the begining of last month. My HP is telling me there's something energetic going on and considering the quality of the pain changed after a very potent ritual earlier this month I'm inclined to believe her. That doesn't make it easier to deal with though Frustrating doesn't even come close to describing the feeling.
RE: Kyanite grid - husband and I went to a metaphysical fair a few weeks ago ($60+ rocks, $150+ on books BUT most were half priced new!!! I restrained myself from buying the $1,000 crystal singing bowls) anyway, there was one healer there that had some sort of double crystal grid on a massage table, one grid on the floor under the table, one on top of the table where the patient lay. Literally made the hair stand up on my arm, I sort of staggered away from the thing. I've gotten the hang of ground/center anywhere, inside or out, helps a lot, particularly as you become more sensitive to energy.
The coven is studying the qabalistic paths in preparation for a major ritual this October called walking the tree. Personally, in addition to the regular stuff, I've been drawn to the soundings of Tom Kenyon (that stuff will literally blow your mind) and reading about Mary Magdalene and Tantra (sometimes sort of the same time).
Oh your poor mother *sigh* I feel like I've created a monster!
I miss you girl! Personally, life is very good, spiritually we're keeping busy and learning some very, very interesting stuff. I'm spending too much money on books, music and rocks but as long as hubby says "we have credit, knock your socks off," I ain't gonna worry about it