I've got a friend named Maurice. Maurice is the goofiest, lankiest bumbling bag of bones you've ever seen. He's always walking around town carrying these big sketch books of the cartoons he is working on. He wants to be a children's book artist adn his stuff is totally goofy and sweet. He's always smiling and pleasant and quiet.
Maurice is also a total bad ass motherf-ck-r... former champion kick boxer.
Once, about 12 years ago, a guy emptied a 44 at him. Maurice was just walking by the guy's house on the Venice boardwalk, and for whatever reason the guy took offense... maybe something like Maurice was walking too close to his yard. The guy was leaning out his window. They exchanged words... and BLAMO BLAMO BLAMO.
Maurice's girlfriend flipped. She ran for her life... and looked back and Maurice was running straight at the guy while he was shooting. He grabbed the guy through the window... pulled him through... and stomped the shit out of him.
I asked Maurice about it. I asked him the simple question:
"Why didn't you run?"
Maurice looked at me totally confused, like my question didn't make any sense at all, and said, "I don't run from anybody."
In Maurice's mind and world, 44 magnum bullets, dying, getting injured - none of these things meant a lot.
He'd honed a kind of control over his own courage that very few people achieve.