PIGEON-RAT
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Alright, serious situation here and I need some insights. Kinda long, sorry bout that.
So over the course of the past semester I meet this girl. She was more or less the active agent pursuing me, but of course I'm totally into her. We have some brief encounters and stuff somewhat getting to know each other, then eventually I invite her over to my place to see this movie I had spoken to her about once. I didn't really expect much from this encounter because we really hadn't spent too much time together to begin with, plus in my mind she seemed like a shy, innocent, nice girl. Also I hadn't had a sober hookup in 3 years, and we weren't gonna be drunk. hah. Plus most of my attraction is to her intellect and personality because for once there's a girl who stimulates my mind, which is hard for me to find, not to sound like a self-absorbed jerk or anything.
Anyway I get back from the gym, get showered, then go meet up with her and bring her back to my place and we watch the movie together on my bed. So we get to making out, and to my surprise she wants more than just some weak makeout business. So we're fucking around and I go down on her first, blow her mind, then she needs to lay and recover for a bit. But I'm fucking exhausted because I had just done deadlifts 2 hours prior, it's finals week, and I was just workin her pussy for AT LEAST a half hour.
She then goes to give me head, and I realize I totally don't have an erection anymore. And it was having a hard time coming around. I'm thinking wtf, I'm 20 and I can't maintain an erection, what the hell's going on? I didn't even blow or anything before this, so I think maybe it was a combination of my exhaustion and maybe nervousness stemming from the fact that I really dig this chick and I haven't been in this situation without booze for 3 years. So she's thinking why the fuck doesn't he have a chubby, and I tell her "this is the most fucked up thing that's ever happened to me" maybe not completely true, but it's up there. So she's still trying to play around and stimulate me into getting it up, but she doesn't have much patience and is finally like, "It's late, I'm gonna have to get going. Let's just say I'll owe you one next time." So I resigned myself to not getting head, which I wouldn't have minded so much if it weren't for such a fucked up reason.
But it's only 1am on a friday night, which is weird, because that's not really late, plus I know this girl is an insomniac and is usually up real late anyway. We keep making out for some while longer anyway and she ends up leaving 30 min later, so she apparently wasn't trying to high-tail it out of there.
This is the last week before winter break, and there are still finals going on, so neither of us really have time to see each other, but I did call her that following Sunday and tried to go get coffee with her, but she says she has a final the next morning and can't really do anything, but she really hopes we get to see each other before we leave for break.
So I had finals until the Wednesday before we both leave and then that night I called her, but no answer. I leave a voice message telling her to give me a call back, but 4 hours later no dice. So like a desperate douche I called a second time, and yet again it just rings and I get her voice mail.
Now this is kinda strange since it's rare for a college student to just not have their cell phone on them all day, especially since she supposedly wanted to get together before we left. So like a paranoid nutcase I think she was all weirded out from my freak erectile dysfunction. Also I'm uncircumcised, and I think she's like half jewish or something. I've never had any problems because of it; I even dated two jewish chicks in the past and they had no qualms about it.
So she never did return that call, and she's on vacation for 3 weeks until spring semester, so there's no solid resolution in this matter for a while and I'm stressing about it because this girl finally broke a long period of sexual apathy for me and I'd be pissed if something so fucking stupid ruined it for me.
Yeah I know I'm a big loser, but am I nuts thinking she's trying to avoid me after this?
So over the course of the past semester I meet this girl. She was more or less the active agent pursuing me, but of course I'm totally into her. We have some brief encounters and stuff somewhat getting to know each other, then eventually I invite her over to my place to see this movie I had spoken to her about once. I didn't really expect much from this encounter because we really hadn't spent too much time together to begin with, plus in my mind she seemed like a shy, innocent, nice girl. Also I hadn't had a sober hookup in 3 years, and we weren't gonna be drunk. hah. Plus most of my attraction is to her intellect and personality because for once there's a girl who stimulates my mind, which is hard for me to find, not to sound like a self-absorbed jerk or anything.
Anyway I get back from the gym, get showered, then go meet up with her and bring her back to my place and we watch the movie together on my bed. So we get to making out, and to my surprise she wants more than just some weak makeout business. So we're fucking around and I go down on her first, blow her mind, then she needs to lay and recover for a bit. But I'm fucking exhausted because I had just done deadlifts 2 hours prior, it's finals week, and I was just workin her pussy for AT LEAST a half hour.
She then goes to give me head, and I realize I totally don't have an erection anymore. And it was having a hard time coming around. I'm thinking wtf, I'm 20 and I can't maintain an erection, what the hell's going on? I didn't even blow or anything before this, so I think maybe it was a combination of my exhaustion and maybe nervousness stemming from the fact that I really dig this chick and I haven't been in this situation without booze for 3 years. So she's thinking why the fuck doesn't he have a chubby, and I tell her "this is the most fucked up thing that's ever happened to me" maybe not completely true, but it's up there. So she's still trying to play around and stimulate me into getting it up, but she doesn't have much patience and is finally like, "It's late, I'm gonna have to get going. Let's just say I'll owe you one next time." So I resigned myself to not getting head, which I wouldn't have minded so much if it weren't for such a fucked up reason.
But it's only 1am on a friday night, which is weird, because that's not really late, plus I know this girl is an insomniac and is usually up real late anyway. We keep making out for some while longer anyway and she ends up leaving 30 min later, so she apparently wasn't trying to high-tail it out of there.
This is the last week before winter break, and there are still finals going on, so neither of us really have time to see each other, but I did call her that following Sunday and tried to go get coffee with her, but she says she has a final the next morning and can't really do anything, but she really hopes we get to see each other before we leave for break.
So I had finals until the Wednesday before we both leave and then that night I called her, but no answer. I leave a voice message telling her to give me a call back, but 4 hours later no dice. So like a desperate douche I called a second time, and yet again it just rings and I get her voice mail.
Now this is kinda strange since it's rare for a college student to just not have their cell phone on them all day, especially since she supposedly wanted to get together before we left. So like a paranoid nutcase I think she was all weirded out from my freak erectile dysfunction. Also I'm uncircumcised, and I think she's like half jewish or something. I've never had any problems because of it; I even dated two jewish chicks in the past and they had no qualms about it.
So she never did return that call, and she's on vacation for 3 weeks until spring semester, so there's no solid resolution in this matter for a while and I'm stressing about it because this girl finally broke a long period of sexual apathy for me and I'd be pissed if something so fucking stupid ruined it for me.
Yeah I know I'm a big loser, but am I nuts thinking she's trying to avoid me after this?