Rebuilding a life....

[Puc]

Everyone always says you have to hit rock bottom before you can rebuild, well, I don't think that is true... I think rock bottom is when you finally admit to yourself that whatever you are doing is not working -- that you are broken and need fixing...

I have made a lot of decisions in life that, although I do not regret them, I am definitely not in a better place in the aftermath. Now, I sit here looking at a pile of bills that need to be paid and a mountain of obstacles in my way.

I have to start climbing out of debt, and that sucks. sucks bad. I have to rebuild friendships that are broken... I have to build new ones to fill the voids left in the wake...

fuck it is discouraging...

I am far to acute to not be successful... and for sure it is acumen that has kept me from falling off of the ledge that I have been standing on for so long... teetering on the brink of insanity... so close to dying and killing because of a masochism that I have only begun to identify... so many attempts at ending things... so many... I cant hate myself anymore... I am so tired of it... emotionally spent, really...

now I am back fighting life one day at a time... in the hopes that I can crawl out of the chasm and start to stride again... there is still a world that needs conquering, isn't there?

 

[HighIntensity]

we seem to be in similiar cross roads, at similiar times in our lives.

puc do you miss her?

 

[The Shadow]

Wanna fuck?

 

[the nature boy]

way to be supportive!

 

[HighIntensity]

Wanna fuck?

me

 

[Kryp2o]

Alot of us have been down that road before. It's a tuff road to find your way off of, but hang in there. This is the part of life that will make you stronger. Just look at it as a test, one you are deterimined to pass.

 

[bwood]

chin up puc...

the only alternative is feeding the maggots...

fuck those maggots...

 

[68GT350]

Puc,

You and me are in a really bad place now. It's hard not to feel completely down and helpless. It's funny how in a world filled with billions of people, a fella can feel utterly alone.

All I can say is take one day at a time, exude confidence and totally immerse yourself in yoru work. If you don't have more than 40 hours at your job, get a second. It's my constant working that's keeping me sane otherwise who knows what i'd do.

 

[WODIN]

Puc just relax and use lube. You will never break the butt boy record that ssme holds if you do not learn to relax.

 

[Paulos]

There's always Ideepthroat for when you're depressed Puc.