Puc
Banned
Everyone always says you have to hit rock bottom before you can rebuild, well, I don't think that is true... I think rock bottom is when you finally admit to yourself that whatever you are doing is not working -- that you are broken and need fixing...
I have made a lot of decisions in life that, although I do not regret them, I am definitely not in a better place in the aftermath. Now, I sit here looking at a pile of bills that need to be paid and a mountain of obstacles in my way.
I have to start climbing out of debt, and that sucks. sucks bad. I have to rebuild friendships that are broken... I have to build new ones to fill the voids left in the wake...
fuck it is discouraging...
I am far to acute to not be successful... and for sure it is acumen that has kept me from falling off of the ledge that I have been standing on for so long... teetering on the brink of insanity... so close to dying and killing because of a masochism that I have only begun to identify... so many attempts at ending things... so many... I cant hate myself anymore... I am so tired of it... emotionally spent, really...
now I am back fighting life one day at a time... in the hopes that I can crawl out of the chasm and start to stride again... there is still a world that needs conquering, isn't there?
I have made a lot of decisions in life that, although I do not regret them, I am definitely not in a better place in the aftermath. Now, I sit here looking at a pile of bills that need to be paid and a mountain of obstacles in my way.
I have to start climbing out of debt, and that sucks. sucks bad. I have to rebuild friendships that are broken... I have to build new ones to fill the voids left in the wake...
fuck it is discouraging...
I am far to acute to not be successful... and for sure it is acumen that has kept me from falling off of the ledge that I have been standing on for so long... teetering on the brink of insanity... so close to dying and killing because of a masochism that I have only begun to identify... so many attempts at ending things... so many... I cant hate myself anymore... I am so tired of it... emotionally spent, really...
now I am back fighting life one day at a time... in the hopes that I can crawl out of the chasm and start to stride again... there is still a world that needs conquering, isn't there?