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Atomic Punk
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In re: to all the commenters on the "Whats Your Take on Drug Addicts" Thread.
I have been addicted to heroin. At first, it was just something that I liked doing, which over a period of about 2 & 1/2 years, became an everyday-10 bag per day- addiction. TRUST ME, I never set out to become a fucking junky dudes-it just happened.
Let me try to explain it to you all who don't understand. At some point during ones continuing and escalating use of ANY opiate(not just Heroin), your body's own natural endorphins(pain killers) become supressed, just as the bodys own natural Testosterone becomes surpressed when administering steroids, as HEROIN and all OPIATES act as a mimic to those natural chemicals. Once surpressed, it takes(just as it does with Test) time for those natural chemicals to come back. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO IS, when the OPIATE is ceased, the period of time for the bodys own natural chemicals to resume is visible in the person in the form of SEVERE SICKNESS WITHDRAWAL from the drug. Let me ask all of you juicers a question: If the same were true with Steroids, HOW MANY OF YOU WOULD EVER QUIT??? Not only do you 1. Like the effects of the drug but now 2. You need the drug to actually feel FUCKING NORMAL!! SERIOUISLY GUYS, how many of you would EVER quit under those circumstances???
Anyhow, that was the scenario that I found myself in after a period of time. In other words, I was eventually using the shit just to not get sick. It became ironic in a way, because my family knew of the addiction, and when I would come over in a good mood, with loads of energy, they would assume that I was kicking or had kicked the shit, when in reality I had just shot up before getting there, in order to just function. I never got to the point of selling myself, or my posessions for the shit, but I am lucky. I had ways out, and people who cared. TRUST ME WHEN I SAY, that when I realized the dillema that I was in, I WANTED GENUINLY to get off the drug, but simply couldn't stand the withdrawal. It is that bad.
How did I quit? I went to detox. My parents payed 2 grand to send me there. They put me on a 4 day METHADONE REGIMINE, which completely relieves the withdrawal, while at the same time, allowing the heroin to leave the system. This did the trick. I am working now. I am back in the gym. They are proud of me. I have suceeded where TONS of others have failed. Luckily for myself, NONE of my friends do Heroin, so it wasn't like I left detox, and came back into a heroin environment. In that aspect I am lucky, because I remember talking to other people in the detox-center thinking, "man, these poor fuckers have ZERO chance", because they WERE going back to that EXACT environment. No chance.
Now, how did I come to use this drug? Well, I have to be honest in that reguard. I SAUGHT IT OUT. I WANTED to try heroin. Why? Easy. I tried Nubain. MANY OF YOU know what that is. Once I tried that and like it, then found out what it was, it was only a matter of time. What do I mean by that? Once I found out that Nubain was an Opiate, and that Heroin was the KING OF OPIATES, what do you think my feelings were about heroin? GIVE IT TO ME! That's what! And BOY WAS I RIGHT! When I first tried it, it was by accident. I was selling a 1000 valium tabs to a guy, who just happened to be friends with a junky from the city, and had given him one stamp-bag as payment on some kind of deal. He in turn, knowing how I felt about smack, gave it to me. I cut the 1/20th of a gram up into 3 lines and snorted the one small line. THE BEST FEELING I have ever had in my life. I wanted more. That's how it starts. Given alot of bodybuilders proclivity towards drugs like Nubain, I don't find it hard AT ALL to fathom, that many of you could end up in the exact same boat as I was, so CAN YOUR UNEDUCATED, IMPASSIONATE, and UNEMPATHETIC comments until you've been there.
I am writing my memoirs now about how I decended from healthy BBer to Junky, to show how crazy the HEROIN situation has become in the NORTHEAST, since the Columbians started to import it in the early 1990's to increase their DECREASING profits from coke. It is EVERYWHERE here.
I have been addicted to heroin. At first, it was just something that I liked doing, which over a period of about 2 & 1/2 years, became an everyday-10 bag per day- addiction. TRUST ME, I never set out to become a fucking junky dudes-it just happened.
Let me try to explain it to you all who don't understand. At some point during ones continuing and escalating use of ANY opiate(not just Heroin), your body's own natural endorphins(pain killers) become supressed, just as the bodys own natural Testosterone becomes surpressed when administering steroids, as HEROIN and all OPIATES act as a mimic to those natural chemicals. Once surpressed, it takes(just as it does with Test) time for those natural chemicals to come back. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO IS, when the OPIATE is ceased, the period of time for the bodys own natural chemicals to resume is visible in the person in the form of SEVERE SICKNESS WITHDRAWAL from the drug. Let me ask all of you juicers a question: If the same were true with Steroids, HOW MANY OF YOU WOULD EVER QUIT??? Not only do you 1. Like the effects of the drug but now 2. You need the drug to actually feel FUCKING NORMAL!! SERIOUISLY GUYS, how many of you would EVER quit under those circumstances???
Anyhow, that was the scenario that I found myself in after a period of time. In other words, I was eventually using the shit just to not get sick. It became ironic in a way, because my family knew of the addiction, and when I would come over in a good mood, with loads of energy, they would assume that I was kicking or had kicked the shit, when in reality I had just shot up before getting there, in order to just function. I never got to the point of selling myself, or my posessions for the shit, but I am lucky. I had ways out, and people who cared. TRUST ME WHEN I SAY, that when I realized the dillema that I was in, I WANTED GENUINLY to get off the drug, but simply couldn't stand the withdrawal. It is that bad.
How did I quit? I went to detox. My parents payed 2 grand to send me there. They put me on a 4 day METHADONE REGIMINE, which completely relieves the withdrawal, while at the same time, allowing the heroin to leave the system. This did the trick. I am working now. I am back in the gym. They are proud of me. I have suceeded where TONS of others have failed. Luckily for myself, NONE of my friends do Heroin, so it wasn't like I left detox, and came back into a heroin environment. In that aspect I am lucky, because I remember talking to other people in the detox-center thinking, "man, these poor fuckers have ZERO chance", because they WERE going back to that EXACT environment. No chance.
Now, how did I come to use this drug? Well, I have to be honest in that reguard. I SAUGHT IT OUT. I WANTED to try heroin. Why? Easy. I tried Nubain. MANY OF YOU know what that is. Once I tried that and like it, then found out what it was, it was only a matter of time. What do I mean by that? Once I found out that Nubain was an Opiate, and that Heroin was the KING OF OPIATES, what do you think my feelings were about heroin? GIVE IT TO ME! That's what! And BOY WAS I RIGHT! When I first tried it, it was by accident. I was selling a 1000 valium tabs to a guy, who just happened to be friends with a junky from the city, and had given him one stamp-bag as payment on some kind of deal. He in turn, knowing how I felt about smack, gave it to me. I cut the 1/20th of a gram up into 3 lines and snorted the one small line. THE BEST FEELING I have ever had in my life. I wanted more. That's how it starts. Given alot of bodybuilders proclivity towards drugs like Nubain, I don't find it hard AT ALL to fathom, that many of you could end up in the exact same boat as I was, so CAN YOUR UNEDUCATED, IMPASSIONATE, and UNEMPATHETIC comments until you've been there.
I am writing my memoirs now about how I decended from healthy BBer to Junky, to show how crazy the HEROIN situation has become in the NORTHEAST, since the Columbians started to import it in the early 1990's to increase their DECREASING profits from coke. It is EVERYWHERE here.
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