sunday
whelp, today didnt turn out like it was drawn up. Dont wanna rant and rave but I planned to reduce cario and finally listen from 30 minutes, 6 days a week to 20 minutes. Also planned on reducing speed from 2.8 and incline to 12%, down from 3.0-.3.5 for 30. Well, I succeeded, for the most part. Went for 20 at 3.0 instead of 2.8, just a snail pace.
It's amazing how more complacent I am with loseing my abs and gettn a lilltle blurry when I think that my cardio has been reduced severely and if I need to cut, I'll just crank it back up. Tomorrow wed and riday and my planned 20 minute slow walk before breakfast.
2nd, I didnt have my cheat meal yest so I had 2 scheduled for today. A huge brunch buffe then to gmas for a huge steak, potates and a fat sunday. 0 for 2. I didnt go to brunch and dinner was a 4ozbuffalo steak and 4 of taliapia. Instead of a potatoe I had a acorn squash. No ice cream. So I suck at cheating.....I could cheat this whole week if cheat meals get carried over. Talk to me....
#3 an inense leg session, squat is very weak, but I need to do them to get beter. Knees pop, anklces fizzle, but it's becuase Ive killed my joints being so dealthy skinny. I did do a pretty intense quad ab and calf session. 1 for 1. At least this came true.
#4 mentally stop looking in the mirror as Im not gonna get skinny fat. Even if I weak, as long as I go to failure, strength with come with mass, right?
#5 another 125mg of test and eq scheduled. Hit em both and feeling good. 1 for 1
#6 hit every meal, no misses, skips, half meals. Do it and do it to the max everyday! Today, nailed em all and am faded, bloated to hell. I lik it, it's like beating my head and mind into the ground. That devil says ok, no more food. WHile you guys say, you need it....you need it.....finish it. So, we are winning that battle. Spent all of 4 hours prepping each of my 8 meals for the week. Still concerned with wednesday, my off day...he says I should make no changes! none! Not switching from carbs to fat, not reducing cals. He also even wants me to have my pw and ppw meals and shakes. This is bizzare, isnt it....why the hell would I nned 3 servings of crweam of rice or 10 rice cakes and another 200 carbs throughout the night if I didnt train??? Will karma to answer that logically.'
So overall, my mind was too concerned with hitting everymeal, not skimping on measuremnents and training as hard as I could for 45 minutes. Headphones on...go to town, then eat!
So, all in all, I need to learn to cheat. Very weird. It's kind of like saying I need to learn to be a human. 2ndly, afer meeting with an old client yesterday. I really have the fear in me. I helped him train and he won the EAS transformation contest about 4 years ago. He's still grateful. So grateful, today he gave me prob. $1,000 worth of rtds myoplex carb sense, lite and regualar. Havt used em, but tommy says hey are a perfect protein. Drink em whenever the hll u feel like. Drink em at 4am, drink 10, who cares, his motto is more is better. He's like that with everything. On bench, when he spots me with the bar (lol) he's always like come one skinny, lets roll, 10 is good 12 is better.
anyways, my client told me to stop fucking kidding myself. I have an ed...I need to corret it now. My face looks sunken in, my eyes drawn back...etc. He said I knew you at 225 when you honeslty looked like a smaller arnold and the girls melted. The last part I dont rmember, lol, but the first part reminds of a great time in my life. Never counted cals, never look at anything but fat grams, tiny bit of cardio, and training daily. Fuck I use dto eat pretzels, peanuts, protein bars, ice cream tacos.....like at 10pm, i neve cared till I started reading and reading and reading...knowledge fucked me up.