Just came by to say hi

Happy Winter Solstice (belated)/Christmas/holiday hoo ha
All the best

Oh, you dear girl ... I have no words There is almost nothing worse than watching someone you love face that. It gets to the point that you'd rather it was you that was sick, it would be easier to deal with ...

Vent away, go pvt. if you need to. Don't keep it bottled up. Honey, trust me on this, while (thank deity) my husband has never had any serious health problems, I've been down the road before.

I'm shocked that a virus caused all that, though?! Holy I remember how ed up I was with viral meningitis last year, but I didn't know it could cause so much damage to a heart, OMG, horrifying ...

Great to see you back, I hope things have eased up a bit for you. I am having a rough time now too, my husband was diagnosed with congestive heart failure (dilated cardiomyopathy) in September. They say it was from a virus. He will be getting an implanted defibrillator, and will have cardiac ablation, where they burn off a piece of the heart to stop recurring tachycardia (erratic heartbeart). We've gone to hospital twice now because his resting heart rate was at 160 and wouldn't go down, they had to defibrillate him each time- it was kind of scary to watch. I can't bear to read the mortality statistics. I have to kind of live in denial a bit right now, just to stay sane. So I am kinda stressed/
Whoah I seriusly vented!
Take care, glad to see you back!!!

I'm not dead yet

How you doin' lady!?

Depending on what spiritual philosophy there are considered to be as few as three parts of self or as many as nine. They're all really talking about the same thing, a higher self, that part of us which is truly a piece of the divine and immortal, the lower self, which is the purely material part of us and all those inherent drives (primarily everything controlled by the brainstem), and a middle ground where the two come together, the interface between the divine and material.

He runs other people down because he's hollow; a lost man-child. Like I've said before, smart and good looking but an utter failure at the that really matters.

thanks for the support!
He pist me off a bit, I have to admit...lol!

I didn't mean to imply that anyone who has to put a family member into a home is in any way wrong. Believe me, I'm a neurology transcriptionist, plus both my ex husband's grandfather and my current husband's mom ended up in the nursing home, I have nothing but empathy for the who situation. We need to work, they need care, and viritually nobody gets long term care insurance that will pay for the aids. My point was that when it comes to life, quantity isn't necessarily the single benchmark for success.

I listen to so many stories of people who are in nursing homes, they show up in my doctor's offices with no family members, no medical records, the nurses at the home have no idea who these people are, and the patient's are completely befuddled and it's one of my biggest fears, seriously. It's one of the reasons the work is wearing me down, in fact.

I ran into my second grade teacher not too long ago, and she said she remembered me as "sturdy" LMAO that was funny.
I was always tall too, but I pretty much liked playing games and whatnot. Except dodgeball. Terrified of getting that thing in the face. I was crazy for horseback riding from 10-14- took lessons every weekend.
I was a complete nerd though, a real keener A+ student. So we could have been friends! lolololol