A New Beginning

Three years of this man. Two years of dealing with the ex. My soul is wearing thin.

Hang in there bud.
I won't give you the darkess before the light, BS.
Just hang in there.

Update: Job went to one of the boss' relatives. My friend out there talked to the shift leaders and they all said they really hope my name pops up again and they were disappointed I wouldn't be joining them this round of hiring. That makes me feel good about myself and my character.

I do still feel hideously unstable about the situation with the ex in relation to my daughter. I spoke with an atty that doesn't practice family law and he said there's a good chance I could get full custody of my daughter since I've kept such meticulous records of the ex's actions when it comes to her. He also said having a DOD job with clearance like I'm hoping for would go a very long way in my case.

Didn't get the job. I didn't think I had it 100% but I was feeling really good about it. I really hate life right now. Nothing I do works, the ex is off her rocker saying she's going to try to take Q away and move in with married guy after a whopping 2 month relationship.

I feel pretty unstable right now and slipping up and drinking feels mild compared to what I feel capable of right now.

Whats up every one? I recently have started trying guided meditations, like this one
The Eleventh Step
Meditation on the Path to Recovery from Addiction

Freeman, Laurence (Audiobook CD - 2007)

so far so good, the guy talking is way smarter than me so thats a good start

Welcome strip set You found a great place to share experience, strength, and hope.

I'm new to the site but not at all new to being in a bad place. Nefertiti, you've got my support and while I not that good at praying I'll do my best! I know some positive thoughts of support will always win out over, 1) no thoughts and 2) negative thoughts.

Good post trex! I'm not 'religious' but that prayer has helped me when I've been in a bad place.
I said a prayer for you nefertiti. I hope things are looking brighter.

Thinking of you nefertiti, have faith ok?
You are in my prayers, and here is one for you to think of:
Prayer of Saint Francis of Assisi

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury,pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.


O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen

trex- Jamacia was great.
nef-I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.