A New Beginning

LOL bbr100, f**n lol
could be worse, you could be in a women's only group
this may sound whatever, but it is hard to find a woman in AA with good sobriety who is not stark raving crazy
so anyway, i have been given trazadone and ativan for temporay purposes, as I seem to be having random meltdowns during the day and unable to sleep. does this mean i have lost my sobriety? i'm only using them for the prescribed purpose- not losing my mind

I won't have time for gym. Step group tonight and i'm already tired. It's been great overall. I can't help judging everyone though.
There's alcoholic Harry; smart, but thinks he is.
One legged Ben is cool. He should get that tooth fixed.
Krazy Kevin who has a master's but real issues with women ( and are favourite words) and laughs too hard.
Jerry, the highscool custodian, who thinks we're his psychiatrist - spills are never about step we're doing and wears a russian hat with the flaps like Bullwinkle's buddy for 2 hrs. indoors.
me!!!
Rick, who has 20+ yrs and thinks every word that comes out of his mouth is so wise. Monotone, slow talker.
Ken, the bankrobber - i like him.
Truth is, they help me a lot and i care about each of them.
FML

In patient was the best thing I could have done for myself. I recommend it.

I'm giving inpatient treatment another look. Haven't decided how committed I am to the idea, but I'm putting out feelers and making calls. We'll see.

Since I'm so rich right now I've decided I'm going to take part in a depression study at the U of U. 's getting out of hand between the body aches, not being able to sleep, and never wanting to get out of bed. I wouldn't exactly call the anxiety a bonus either. The concern I have with it is I'd be on an unreleased med during the study, which could take a year, and I obviously worry about the sides and how I could adjust to being off of something when the study is over.

thanks guys it is a bit much it's true

God trex. I can't imagine how stressed you must be. My thoughts are with you.

Thanks,
right now i am really scared. just got the news that he is being put on the transplant list as a high priority. I have to be strong , I just told work I was taking another week off as vacation time, so at least i don't have to worry about that.
The heart could come from as far west as calgary, and as far east as novia scotia....it is pretty surreal.

lol @ a woman with her pms on being an invitation.
trex, I don't even know what to say. Great that your husband's getting the care he needs but I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you. I'm sure, everyone's thoughts and prayers are with you.
You're an incredible example of courage, strength and hope.

hey if anyone needs to send me a pm for help or just to vent, i am going to turn my pms on