A New Beginning

Hey Cindy. Glad you made it here.

hi cindylou. welcome to the group!

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Another option is switching my insurance to something that covers this. I honestly got a pretty bare bones plan because I never get sick, and I have seperate insurance that covers all dive related accident care. I wonder if it's even possible to buy another plan and then dump something that costly onto them soon after?

I've talked Remuda down to 30,000, down from the initial figure of 120,000. Apparently they think the "acuity" of my situation warrants drastic financial measures on their part. That puts me in the range of possibly getting a bank loan, but I'd like to see if they are willing to take it down further, or break it up into payments. I'd do the 30,000 if I could make quarterly payments for a year, but I understand their need to get that amount up front. They want me in by the end of feb, but that just might not be feasible. We will see.

Holy Cow! I come here 20 times and nothing, then look in and see it's been 15 pages ago! Yall are some sick, sick, people. And that's why I came too. LOL I love yall...
Has someone PM'd Cindy. I wrote her in a post, but one of us who knows her should ask her to stop by. I'd like to see what we can say to help her. She seems to be a very nice young girl, I hope she sees my post and takes me up on the offer to come by.

Nef, inpatient saved my life. I hope you find the right solution for you.
BBR, thanks for sending me another message, it does help get me back here. Nothing happens and nothing happens, then BAM..
Jnev, you keep looking for the answer, I tried for years to find mine. I hope the study angle works out, it may be very productive. I went to psychologist for 3 years. Can't say she helped me find out anything that I didn't already know, just helped me put things into a logical order so I could understand them. I'd go again it I thought that I needed it. You "guidance" issure, that was something that she would have helped me with. I hope you find a good one, just because they hang a degree on the wall, it doesn't mean that htye are good. Find one that is....
I love everyone. I'm still sober. I'm still clean. It's been 10 years and 3 months that I have woken up every morning and decided that 'Just for today, I'm not going to drink. But, it's just for today."

God can and will IF He is sought. May you find Him now.

yeah trex I thought about that when I was driving home. I honestly feel like I'm losing it in a few ways and just feel desperate. I need some guidance on how to work through things while doing something about this god anxiety. I work out like a madman, have cut out all stims, and have been trying to meditate. But I'll still keep having attacks and it's becoming something that's almost constant. My heart is always beating fast, I get choked up on words when I talk to people, and then I start shaking and I feel like I just want to fold. It's just ed. I've never been like this and it trips me out.

I have talked to a lot of psychologists/psychiatrists, and you IMO have to have a goal in mind. They will ask you "why are you here?" It helps if you know the answer to that before hand.
Also to be aware of their personal preference of therapy, whether it be cognitive behavioral therapy, regression therapy, medication-based therapy or whatever else is the treatment du jour.
The thing about those shrinks is that they love to label you and put you in a little box. I would resist taking on any diagnosis that appears without too much introspection and discussion.
When I was a kid, I was diagnosed with ADD. When I was a young adult I was diagnosed with depression. Neither of those diagnosises were correct. They were just guessing really.
I hope something good comes out of it jnevin-i think it will help if you have a goal in mind for what you want to achieve with this.
Like for example: I want to learn some coping skills to deal with my mood swings, or I want to learn some relaxation techniques that I can use when I get enraged

So I met with the lady that would be heading the study today and I guess, much to her chagrin I actually understand how medical studies go. I was actually appalled at how they'd use people as guinea pigs for something like that and not offer counseling along with it, so she referred me to a program that has residents in their final year of residency help ngrs out. They prefer to do it med free. She had concerns about certain things. My anxiety, my insomnia, my not having thoughts of suicide, but feeling that things would go along better without me, and that fact that I've been a violent person in the past.

So I called them and I should be hearing back in a week or so. I don't know how to talk to a shrink or what to expect. I've only talked to one when I was a kid when my parents were getting divorced. I don't know how to talk to anyone buy you guys really.

the bankrobber probably has some good stories...ever read about the stopwatch gang? i read a book on them that was good.